im gonna

- ride my bike across america

- travel and work in South America, Africa, Spain, Iceland, Mongolia, Asia...hell everywhere

- stay in huts with families around the world and learn how they live and glean glean glean

- sell most of my stuff and only keep what I need and this includes my books and records

- study Jung, Joseph Campbell, Taoism, chinese medicine

- start climing again

- get good on swim technique and complete a bike/cycle race

- river guide for a summer

- raft the Grand Canyon for a month

- live out of a converted bus around the U.S. - stay in Baja for a summer

- learn french fluently- learn spanish fluently

- live with a Mexican family and glean glean glean

- buy land and build a home, using river rocks, mud- make a brick oven and open the land as to grow a small community

- be a mother who amplifies love without conditions, acceptance, kindness, adventure and strength

- learn african style guitar

- sail on the sea

- spend a month in isolation painting and creating

Chinsagu No Hana - Ryuichi Sakamoto

whats been up yo

I went to Colorado

and rafted down the Ark

I got my lip busted
and bled

and bled

and bled

but I still saw the bluffs

so proud and erect

and I still felt the water

with blood on my lip.

Then I saw mountain ranges

and I guess it seems,

they've been there awhile

with many chiefs in between

...and I squinted

and I looked through my hand-

turned in a circle,

to let certain things in-

then we went inside the park,

and climbed to a waterfall

its name Calypso

and the trees were tall

 the air swirled around us

and the rain did fall

and i sang the song

that broke down my walls.

We drove to Wyoming,

crossed the mountains in the dark,

and I could feel the gravity

and see the moon spark...

and I peered to the side

and saw deepness and dark-

and the moon reflected from my heart.

Now Im back in the home,

where the Rockies live...

and I am full enough so I can give

and I can't remember -

what my door looks like...

but I don't need it,

cause theres one in my heart.
 ~michelle 

song to slow synchopation

it is when

i am standing

all alone

and i am grabbing

for your hand

it is not found

and i am sad

your in the ground.

it is when

you take the time

to look at me

and what ive found

but your not trying

and i cant bend

this is me

until the end.

it is when

i saw the owl

in the dark

wyoming prowl

that i knew

you were looking

at me tonight

when i was sad

so i let you hold me

well i pretended

you

were
  ~michelle

sotosporin

I feel beginnings all around me

I am not afraid

but am I living in reality?

Can you make your own reality?

I have

I have had to.

so happy so excited so happy so excited so happy so excited so happy so excited

Your hand so softly touched my face and my cheek thawed

you are thawing me

I probably will keep re-freezing until I feel safe...

will you stay by my banks and look for your reflection in my waters?

will you lay your hands upon my frozen body and feel me as I melt?

the outline of your fingers in me, on me, reminding me you are there until I am free of fear and flowing freely alongside you.

 ~michelle