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10.11.12

duality...truality (beat box background buzz)

 (wanted to re-post this)



as i tramped through the grass
i was stopped by a bee
who buzzed up real close and spoke words to me-
at first i was scared, cause your s'pose to be
but i swallowed it down and it drew close to me

"Listen up lady,
i got something to say
it just might affect where your going today.
As far as you know
i just like to sting...
this is only a shtick
i got more that i bring.
You see, back with my pals, i am known to be nice
funny and sweet, with a vice for the dice.
In the town next to here,
they'd have something to say
about when i visit
in my "own special way!"
when i'm here -i am this
when i'm there- i am that
but mostly i live without a format
inside i'm the same
cause inside i am much
without walls to contain me
with rules and such."


i waved goodbye
careful, for the bee
who had taught me a lot about how to be free.
letting go of the ties
that so often bind me.
 ~michelle
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5.11.12

know thyself



i forgot...
 how much my mind craves solitude
that it is in nature i feel most at peace and at home
that my spirit must feel free
in order for me to thrive
that i am independent and brave
and vulnerable and open
that i adapt easily and need little to feel content
that i am complicated yet crave simplicity in life
that i am pleasantly restless,
 excited by life and the exploration of it
despite the many times its knocked me on my ass
that i am resiliant
empathetic
kind
funny
giving
and i wear my heart on my sleeve
its messy there
that i want  to (and will) see the world
that im a good traveler bc i fully immerse myself, and observe, and participate
and love to live out of my backpack and i'm open and spontaneous.
that i want to(and will) garden all summer barefoot the rest of my life
that i want to work in the dirt
that i love to have paint on my hands and clay under my nails
that i want to (and will) camp for 3 months and create my own world
that i will never stop growing and learning
that i am beautiful and interesting
creative and innovative.
 
i want to never forget who i am again
never

1.11.12

it is not a garment i cast off this day, but a skin i tear with my own hands (Kahlil Gibran)



i do no want to miss you
i do not want to feel
i want to tuck this all away
but that's no way to heal


 the ways of love are hard and steep
i know this to be true
but easiness and comfort was
what i found in you

to move forward and not look back
takes a journey maybe two
but secretly inside myself 
i don't want to not, miss you

a thread did bare from my heart
and wove into your own
embroidered over time  
it built the place that i called home

i feel this tie between us still
and wish it not to weather
 maybe what we live apart
 we can one day bring together




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31.10.12

direction



What feels like it might be the most difficult time in your life
is actually one of the best times in your life.
You have not been on the right path.
You have manifested all that has occurred.
You do not realize the power of your thoughts.
The focus of most of your existence has been misplaced.
Finding love is not what your life's destiny is.
Your destiny is one of success.
Humanitarian work
Your art, your writings, your ability to see the light in others
travel...this is the path you are headed on.
To know that YOU are capable of creating the life of your dreams.
Right now the life of your dreams is being manifested.
Now is an inward time.
You will not be here with us in mind, but deep within yourself.
It is time to know yourself.
Who are you? What do you like? What do you want?
Once you come into your being, feel self-reliant and independent
doors will begin to open that will unfold into the life you have always wanted.
Then someone whom you will have a deep emotional connection with
will come into your life. Sooner than you think.
This will be your life partner.
But first...find you
isolation-rainy windows-rock hunting- stick carving- mobile making-picture jumping- secrets-cedar wood, sandalwood, lavender, lemongrass, broken green leaves and baby twigs- open skies that fill my belly- duality- paths that never cross- the smell of knees- red wine, campfire tea-home roasted coffee, green smoothies, yellow delicious apples everyday, fever dreams- drinking from cantaloupes- medium format photography- renegade art- dirty knees- patches- stripes-plaster- diy- reality and daydreams switching places- digging clay- oscillating fans- dioramas- tree worlds- travel tree travelogues- carrots- memories of my father that crawl across the floor, up my arms and into my cheeks- captured images- captured thoughts on my nightstand-turtle homes- hopes- sweat from hard work- long bike rides and aching legs- brushing my teeth outside- dirty fingernails- ink on my hands- unfiltered thoughts- originality- creating from beginnings-mint fields in mist- empty canvases,tubes of paint and endless nights- screaming songs into the wind- sharing secrets with birds- puddles, creeks, streams, hidden worlds behind waterfalls- feather tattoos-looking through paper towel rolls- defying Murphy and his law- green and blue- tearing out pictures- "Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now."(bob dylan)- "I have tried in my way to be free"(leonard cohen)... knowing these words to my very core.- learning-exploring-learning-exploring-slowly moving and watching and experiencing all fully and within the ritual, catching my reflection as a little girl...