communicate

hiddenfreedoms@yahoo.com

19.11.12

being real



does it make me seem weak
to say what i feel
wear my heart on my sleeve
take a long time to heal

re-extend you my heart
battered and torn
by the way that you tossed "it"
when "it" was just born.

does it make me look desperate
when i just say the truth
that i miss everything
despite just uncouth
that your actions and words have been to me
but somehow your heart im able to see.

does it make me sound stupid
  i imagine you running
to tell me you love me
and that you've been coming
but its taken awhile and you're sorry bout that
 sometimes its scary, when you get off track.

 if it makes me seem stupid, desperate or weak
i will just live with that 
because life would be bleak
if i tried to be tough and always play cool
like Mr T says, "I pity the fool"




isolation-rainy windows-rock hunting- stick carving- mobile making-picture jumping- secrets-cedar wood, sandalwood, lavender, lemongrass, broken green leaves and baby twigs- open skies that fill my belly- duality- paths that never cross- the smell of knees- red wine, campfire tea-home roasted coffee, green smoothies, yellow delicious apples everyday, fever dreams- drinking from cantaloupes- medium format photography- renegade art- dirty knees- patches- stripes-plaster- diy- reality and daydreams switching places- digging clay- oscillating fans- dioramas- tree worlds- travel tree travelogues- carrots- memories of my father that crawl across the floor, up my arms and into my cheeks- captured images- captured thoughts on my nightstand-turtle homes- hopes- sweat from hard work- long bike rides and aching legs- brushing my teeth outside- dirty fingernails- ink on my hands- unfiltered thoughts- originality- creating from beginnings-mint fields in mist- empty canvases,tubes of paint and endless nights- screaming songs into the wind- sharing secrets with birds- puddles, creeks, streams, hidden worlds behind waterfalls- feather tattoos-looking through paper towel rolls- defying Murphy and his law- green and blue- tearing out pictures- "Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now."(bob dylan)- "I have tried in my way to be free"(leonard cohen)... knowing these words to my very core.- learning-exploring-learning-exploring-slowly moving and watching and experiencing all fully and within the ritual, catching my reflection as a little girl...