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13.11.12

balcony

a couple summers ago i spent a few glorious months on the road...
traveling and living our of my backpack, my van, tents and sometimes on 
couches or floors.
this is something i have had the privilege of doing many times in my life.
i love how it polarizes life.
time slows down, details become highlighted.
there is a rawness to it.
one is not distracted by extras.
you have all your belongings on your back.
you say yes and there is a flow that takes place.
that particular summer i remember just being so open to life
and letting its magic flow through me.
one of the personal highlights for me was when in estes park, colorado  
a local offered his home as a place to crash while in town.
rather than sleep on the floor or couch i decided to put my sleeping bag
on his back balcony...i believe he was on the second or third floor.
although it was summer at night especially, you could really feel the mountain air.
i had moments of sheer bliss on that balcony.
i would look up at the stars and slowly drift to sleep.
cocooned in my bag i could feel the energy of the rockies and 
my spirit felt right.
i would wake up to the sun peeking through and often catch funny
conversations of tenants stirring and starting their days.
there were just a few days spent sleeping this way, but i remember
it being a special experience for me.
i am glad i made the simple choice to sleep there.
it is getting that time again...to live out of my backpack and say yes.
isolation-rainy windows-rock hunting- stick carving- mobile making-picture jumping- secrets-cedar wood, sandalwood, lavender, lemongrass, broken green leaves and baby twigs- open skies that fill my belly- duality- paths that never cross- the smell of knees- red wine, campfire tea-home roasted coffee, green smoothies, yellow delicious apples everyday, fever dreams- drinking from cantaloupes- medium format photography- renegade art- dirty knees- patches- stripes-plaster- diy- reality and daydreams switching places- digging clay- oscillating fans- dioramas- tree worlds- travel tree travelogues- carrots- memories of my father that crawl across the floor, up my arms and into my cheeks- captured images- captured thoughts on my nightstand-turtle homes- hopes- sweat from hard work- long bike rides and aching legs- brushing my teeth outside- dirty fingernails- ink on my hands- unfiltered thoughts- originality- creating from beginnings-mint fields in mist- empty canvases,tubes of paint and endless nights- screaming songs into the wind- sharing secrets with birds- puddles, creeks, streams, hidden worlds behind waterfalls- feather tattoos-looking through paper towel rolls- defying Murphy and his law- green and blue- tearing out pictures- "Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now."(bob dylan)- "I have tried in my way to be free"(leonard cohen)... knowing these words to my very core.- learning-exploring-learning-exploring-slowly moving and watching and experiencing all fully and within the ritual, catching my reflection as a little girl...