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17.11.09

Revving

There are few people that I wholly admire.
However, there are a couple of folks who have stood out and set a bar I have spent my life reaching for.
They bear qualities that make my skin twist and contort and my stomach vibrate.
I consider the few, mentors of sorts.
Although individuality is something that I have championed since I burst out into this world...sometimes feeling so different can be scary...so reading about a person who carries the intensity for life you do, and exploring how they sprinkled that into growth throughout their life, is inspiring.
This book is my ALL time favorite book ever. Not because of its great literary style, but because in it, it describes a person that I know. While reading (several years ago), something was conceived inside of me. A jolt of appreciation and understanding.
A way of living that I will incorporate into my life, forever.... an intensity that I have always felt but didn't know how to use.
Mr. Unsoeld bared or at least aspired to the qualities that I, in my own personal ranking system, put at the top. They are my ladder of essential achievements.
- intensity: full on, 200% in every aspect of your life
- completion: what you start you finish, with high intensity and in your own creative way
- loyalty
- word: what I say I will do...I want to be counted on
- full on living: this is it...this one life...could be a life of many years, could be one of few so you damn well better live each day as full as you want it to be. Don't waste time on petty shit. On silly dramas...get up, get out, and most importantly BE PRESENT!
- individuality: be the best you- embrace the qualities you love the most in you...and work damn hard to evolve the ones you dislike. Let your freak flag fly but don't let it flap into someones face.
Quirky, eccentricities are the engines for change.
- no excuses: do it or don't...if you don't, get up and do it the next day.
- don't whine: man, if you don't like something then change it, but please don't sit around and whine about it.
- simplicity: whenever you can, go back to your simplest being. Eat what you find, lay under the stars, cook on a fire that you built, make things from your hands, feel your muscles work...test and challenge yourself so you can see what your made of.

When I feel my blood is getting soupy and lazy I know it's time to read this book again, and get my fist pump on...Get up, Get out and GO.....



isolation-rainy windows-rock hunting- stick carving- mobile making-picture jumping- secrets-cedar wood, sandalwood, lavender, lemongrass, broken green leaves and baby twigs- open skies that fill my belly- duality- paths that never cross- the smell of knees- red wine, campfire tea-home roasted coffee, green smoothies, yellow delicious apples everyday, fever dreams- drinking from cantaloupes- medium format photography- renegade art- dirty knees- patches- stripes-plaster- diy- reality and daydreams switching places- digging clay- oscillating fans- dioramas- tree worlds- travel tree travelogues- carrots- memories of my father that crawl across the floor, up my arms and into my cheeks- captured images- captured thoughts on my nightstand-turtle homes- hopes- sweat from hard work- long bike rides and aching legs- brushing my teeth outside- dirty fingernails- ink on my hands- unfiltered thoughts- originality- creating from beginnings-mint fields in mist- empty canvases,tubes of paint and endless nights- screaming songs into the wind- sharing secrets with birds- puddles, creeks, streams, hidden worlds behind waterfalls- feather tattoos-looking through paper towel rolls- defying Murphy and his law- green and blue- tearing out pictures- "Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now."(bob dylan)- "I have tried in my way to be free"(leonard cohen)... knowing these words to my very core.- learning-exploring-learning-exploring-slowly moving and watching and experiencing all fully and within the ritual, catching my reflection as a little girl...